I am in a position where I feel weak and helpless because I am unable to comfort the ones I love to the fullest. I don’t have the rights words or actions - I can’t relate to the situation - it’s foreign to me and I am trying to the best of my ability to make sense of it all.
But nothing feels like its enough. I just want it all to be okay. But honestly, I can’t tell if I’m still okay anymore.
I value the relationships where despite our past history - however harsh and rocky - we are still there for each other at the end of the day. Where we are able to set aside our own pride and ego to help one another out. We run back every mile that was forged between us; to be there, to support, to comfort, to listen, to advise.
I hate when people decide things for me. You can’t make decisions for me. You can’t. I am stubborn first and foremost. And I won’t budge unless I come to terms with it myself. You can’t decide for me because then it has no value to me. I live by my own terms. No one else’s.
Help me understand your point of view. And even then if I don’t agree with you, respect that, as I will respect what you have to say/feel. But don’t shove it down my throat like that’s the final say.
You know. All this time I thought my mom was buying me all these pretty outfits ‘cause she loved me. In actuality she just wants to dress me up to show off to the desi aunties and dangle me in front of them like bait like whose son is gonna marry Jahanaraaaaaaaaaa?
Slowly getting tired of people. Day by day, I am closing off to those that don’t add any value to my life - they are a waste of my time. Sometimes, I feel like that makes me really selfish. But honestly, it’s me trying to get my priorities straight. I have my close friends, and I don’t need the formal side conversations. Half of it ends up being gossip which is so unnecessary.
If picking on other people is your way of starting a conversation with me. Lol. I’m not going to have much to say.
Having said that I am still open to anyone and everyone that needs genuine help - but if your emergency is something that concerns malicious rumors…IMMAWHOOPYOUUPSIDEYOHEAD.